Not Lost Forever: My Story of Survival
by Carmina Salcido
Memoir about a 3-year-old girl in Sonoma, California, whose father murdered her mother, grandmother, two young aunts (8 and 12), two sisters (1 and 4), two men from his work, and cut her throat and left her for dead in a dump.
The story is not only about the murders, but like the subtitle says, it's Carmina's story of survival. And boy what a doozy this is. Besides losing almost her entire family, her grandfather gives her up for adoption after the murders because he doesn't feel he can take care of her. The family who adopts her follows a cult-like, rigid Catholic religion, and Carmina is treated like a complete outsider. What she goes through then, and even after she turns 18, is unbelievable. I don't want to give too much away, but her father is on death row (the search for him after the murders is a whole other story), and he claims he is remorseful and wants her to visit him.
Unbelievable story. Steve Jackson, who helped her write the story, did a great job. The only part I didn't like was how Carmina would sometimes refer to her father as "Ramon" and in the very next sentence refer to him as "my dad." So I kept thinking, wait, who is Ramon?
Do I Recommend?
Yes, if you like true-crime. A lot of people don't, so I don't imagine many of you will be rushing out to get this book :)